Update on my appointment....

This is going to be short, I hope.

I'm exhausted!

The NP did think it was a good idea

to check my cervix today.

She checked, announced "1cm and very soft",

then quickly pulled her glove off

and started pushing around on my belly.

"I didn't feel her head down there".

"Uhm...."

"I should have been able to feel her head.  Ok,

here it is, she's breach. We have to do an

ultrasound to be sure."

While waiting for an OB doc or a sonogram

operator to come take a look, I texted

with Matthew and Mary Jo (a dear friend of mine).

I also spent that time apologizing

to my unborn daughter, for poking her

in her head so much.  I thought I was getting

to pinch her little bottom that whole time.

Please God, if she's breach, I pray

she doesn't come out with bruises all over her head.

The term "butt head" came to mind a LOT while I waited.

The ultrasound confirmed it.  Ædith has her head

in my ribs.... and no wonder my cervix is so angry.

Girlfriend's been kicking it, literally! 

I have an appointment with a doctor next Tuesday.

She'll have the sonogram machine ready

and if Ædi is still not "bottoms up", they'll

attempt a version.  That's where they lube up

my belly and attempt to turn her from the outside.

PLEASE resist the urge to offer up different ideas

on how to get her to turn at home.

I know an awesome Mama that lost her baby

because of a cord getting wrapped around his neck.

The possibility is there, which is why the doctor will do this

with a sonogram.  This is not something I want to attempt

at home.  I will continue my daily walks after supper,

staying upright, sleeping on my left side, etc.

I will not try anything new.

I am leaving this up to God and I will not drive

myself crazy trying to change what He has planned.

I do have one concern, and I'm trying to

not let it become a fear...... I have a very short torso.

This is why I "show" so early in my pregnancies.

Praying I have enough torso to flip her around.

I'll be asking for more and more prayer as Tuesday approaches!

Psalm 139:13-14

 ¹³ For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
¹⁴ I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

Knit away, Father! Your will be done!